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A Poem from my Daughter

I left for Cebu and was there for three days. Although, it is normal for my 6-year old daughter to write poems and even compose songs for me, I find this one very sweet. When I arrived last night, she immediately read to me this poem. She must have missed me a lot. :)

From your hair
To your eyes
To your heart
That’s true.
These are all the reasons
Why I love you Mom.

You’re beautiful.
Smart and special
..and you’re my Mom.

Such a sweet little darling. :)

 
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Posted by on September 2, 2014 in Uncategorized

 

Alone

My daughter excitedly told me she will be joining a singing contest at school. It should be the first because for two consecutive years she had been joining a poem competition. I chose the piece right away and helped her learn the song. The elimination was scheduled three days after she told me about the contest.

Today is Friday. She went to school all prepared for the elimination. She was so excited and I was excited too when she left for school.

She went home and told me she did not perform. She said she was shy. I had to admit, I was disappointed, I told her, it would have been better if she were eliminated than her not performing at all. I hurt her too, I know…and I am sorry. I should have just supported her.

She was to perform there alone, no one to support her. Good thing I was able to record one of our practices. Here is the link.

It brought back memories from when I was still young. I remembered I did not grow up with my family. Yes, I was with my aunt and my sister, but technically we were left alone. I remembered when I joined a Pageant during my college years, I was first year college. I won 1st Runner Up, not bad at all. I accepted the award with my college friends; no family member at all. I remembered it was empty. Yes, I was happy but I have no one to share it with. I may not have won the title, and it was okay, but it could have been perfect if I my family were there.

I remembered the last question that was asked,  “If you were to die today, what would be your last wish?”

Back then, I was not sure of my salvation yet.  Back then, I was away from my family.  My answer:  “Since, I am about to die, my wish would be for myself.  I would wish that I could be saved and go to heaven. “

Looking back, I would have had answered differently if I were already secured of my salvation then.  I would have had answered differently if only I had a family.

Everything is different now,  and as a mom, I would want to be there for Andy in every step of the way.

 

 
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Posted by on August 8, 2014 in About life

 

Closure

You were there.
I was there.
Time brought us together.
We had the chance to talk
That was all I was after.

Hands held tight
Hearts together again.
All the love, the pain poured in.
All the words I’ve been meaning to say
Finally, now I can utter.

Tears falling, so liberating.
At last, I had the chance to say it.
Been waiting for this.
This is closure.

….and, yet it happened in a dream.
So real…so surreal…

(In a dream..I was with Robin Padilla)

 
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Posted by on July 7, 2014 in About life

 

Just like the Old Times

I am a mom of three.  I understand that the way I was brought up by my mom is different from the way I brought up my children.

I remember, Moms used to boil water to prepare our formula milk,  they had to use cloth diaper with the big pins (or clips) and made sure to change it as often as possible to keep the babies dry.

The mothers of today are lucky.  We only need to buy distilled water to prepare the formula for our children,  (lucky are those moms who breastfeed their babies). We only need to buy disposable diapers and we don’t need to worry about washing the cloth diapers.

However, I am going back to the old school. I am using Cloth Diaper for my baby.  Well, it’s not 100% CD yet,because I still use disposable diapers, but eventually I am planning to exclusively use CD for my baby.

It’s not only economical but the fact that I can “help” save the environment by not adding in to the garbage that we throw, is a big thing. It’s stylish and will also keep your baby dry.

Here is Baby Avi and my nephew, Baby Simon swimming with their CD (without the inserts)

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Posted by on May 22, 2014 in About life

 

It’s Been Six Months

I posted an entry on the first day of November and it was about the pain of waiting.  In that post, I said that the next post would be about my new baby; but my last entry was about Typhoon Yolanda.  It was very alarming and I thought, it”s worth sharing.

Anyway, it has been six months since we had our new baby.  I remember, I was talking to my baby when she was still inside my tummy.  I beg for her not to come out on October 31, November 01, or November 02.  My daughter’s obedient even inside my tummy so she came out on November 03.

It was a Sunday.  I woke up at 6 in the morning and started my walking routine. While walking, I felt the pain in my abdomen.  I knew it was different. but I never wanted to assume.  My mother usually joins us to church, but that time she decided to go with my mother in law.

They left, but I never told them that I am already feeling something.  After an hour of walking, I went inside the house and go straight to the bathroom.  It was then that I saw the stain.  I immediately told my husband that “it might be the day”.  He asked me if we’re still going to church.  When I had Seandy and Andy, the pain started early in the morning too, but they both went out at night.  I thought, this will be just like the “old times”, so I told him we’re still going to church.

Around, 8:00 in the morning, I went back to the bathroom to pee and I already saw blood.  It was then, that we decided to go the hospital.

I was in the ER from 9:30 until 10:30.  The ER doctor check on me and said that I am 5cm but she couldn’t touch the head.  When my OB arrived, she also checked on me and said the same thing.  They had to do an “x-ray” to check what’s happening.  The X-ray showed that baby couldn’t move because her head’s bumping on my pelvic bone.  My OB said we need to wait.  If she wouldn’t move then, I’ll have CS.  Thank God she moved.

I was transferred to the delivery room at around 1pm and the baby got out at around 2:45 in the afternoon.

So finally, after the long and “exhausting” wait, we had our new baby.

This was Miesha Dominique aka “Baby Avi” when she was born.

 

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This is Miesha now at six months.

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Posted by on May 22, 2014 in About life

 

Typhoon Yolanda

We left our house early in the morning yesterday (11-08-13) and moved to a more secured place…I was carrying my 5-day-old daughter. 

We spent the day in an apartelle. At night time, we were all keen to know what’s happening but there’s no tv, no radio.  We satisfied ourselves listening to the whistle of wind..it was so strong and scary! Good thing it’s not much raining.

At midnight we even heard the sirene (wangwang) trying to warn the people of an upcoming flood, thank God the flood did not happen. 

We went home early in the morning and felt devastated as we passed through trees that collapsed & were uprooted.  The sight of the houses and fields that were damaged were more terrifying. I can’t even control my children’s reactions upon seeing the horrible aftermath of #YolandaPH .

We reached home and we were met by our cottage already pinned down to the ground. 

We wanted so much to watch tv or listen to the radio to find out what’s happening but we were isolated from the world. We were just getting information from our relatives who were not much affected by the typhoon – some info were even coming from outside of the Philippines.

We do not have electricity since yesterday morning and rumor has it that it might take a month or so before it can be restored..

Please continue to pray for all of the people who were affected by #YolandaPH .

God bless the Philippines.  God bless the Filipinos.

 
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Posted by on November 9, 2013 in About life

 

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Patience is a Virtue

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Today, I am on my 39th week and 1 day.  I never thought I would come this far!  At 35 weeks, we were even concerned about having a premature baby because the baby was too low.  My OB even asked me to take a leave from work at 37th week.  ( I did take a leave earlier since I had to finish my Research Proposal for my Master’s Degree.)

I have been exercising since my 37th week arrived.  Walking in the morning followed by my dancing routine.  They were exhausting (but not as exhausting as waiting..)

I know I have to wait until the right time comes – the time designated by God for her to come out, but really, sometimes the waiting part could be the hardest part.

The fact that I was not alone waiting for our baby to arrive, made it more difficult.  My eldest son, Seandy, and my daughter, Andy asks (pressure me) me every single day when our baby would arrive.

This could probably be the last time I will experience being pregnant, so I need to savor every part of it.  But, if God will us another gift someday, I would be very much willing to accept it, care for it, and again feel the “exhausting” part of anticipating when the baby would arrive.

It’s November first, my due date will be on November 7,  I am hoping the next entry on this blog would include the picture of the new member of the family.

While waiting, I could not help myself from looking at the old pictures of my two babies, indeed they are gifts from God that I will forever be grateful for.

 

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Posted by on November 1, 2013 in About life

 

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